Today is my middle child's birthday, so I've been reminiscing all day.
It's hard to believe 26 years have flown by since I gave birth to my second precious baby girl! It's also hard to believe that so many years have passed since I went through a very traumatic pregnancy.
At that time, I was thrilled to be expecting my second child, but some routine tests indicated a problem with the baby I was carrying. More tests only confirmed that there was a problem--most likely spina bifida. The doctors even spoke with me about ending the pregnancy--which was OUT OF THE QUESTION for me. The Lord had given me this baby to carry and deliver, and I would do the very best I could.
But those months of waiting were NOT easy. Emotionally preparing myself that I'd most likely be caring for a special-needs child were scary, because I wanted to be the best mom I could be. Would I be able to do everything needed for this child--plus take care of the almost-three year-old I already had?
My tears and worrying culminated one day as I looked in the mirror and told myself that I couldn't do anything on my own---BUT with God's help I COULD accomplish whatever I needed to! It was as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and even my doctor's nurse later told me that she'd noticed a change (for the better) in my outlook at that particular time in my pregnancy.
I began humming and singing that old hymn, Trust and Obey, and those words took on a new, stronger meaning for me. To this day that hymn is still very dear to me, and I often play it on my piano.
Praise be to God that when I gave birth to my sweet baby girl in early October, she was PERFECT!!! NO birth defects or problems of any kind---completely normal and healthy. And beautiful, I might add. With a head full of red hair that the nurse styled with a little curl on top, she was the most precious sight as I lay in my hospital bed.
Going through that experience all those years ago has taught me that no matter what we may go through in life, we should always, always do the best we can and TRUST AND OBEY, knowing that our Lord has everything in His very capable Hands.
Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you. 1 Peter 5:7